January 2010
It’s funny to me that it’s nearly 3 AM on a Saturday night, and I’ve spent hours doing homework so I can spend tomorrow with you while you partied. Oh, the things we do for love. (I miss you.)
If this works, If I can do this, If I pull through, Then I’m one step closer to being happy.
I love you.
Don’t give me a reason to change my mind about it, and I won’t give you one either. I can’t wait to see you again.
I’m sick of you looming. You’re always looming somewhere. And I love you. Don’t get me wrong. I love your friendship, because we get along so well and we know each other so deeply. I don’t want to lose you. Don’t get me wrong. But I can’t have you in my face when I’m trying to focus. I need my head clear for this, because he is all I want to focus on. I...
“Everything I know is wrong
Everything I do, it just comes undone
Everything is...”
– Chris Martin, Coldplay - “The Hardest Part”
Leaving you doesn’t fix my problem if my problem is that I desire nothing more than to be with you.
How am I supposed to make this work if you refuse to even try? I haven’t begged anyone in a long time, and the desperation is creeping on as the hours roll by. Kill it for me. Let me prove to you that I can do so much more than you think I’m capable of.
Hold
If seeing you today meant there is a chance of me making this better, then would you please just let me? Let me have this chance? I don’t want to be afraid of you anymore. Let me show you this courage. Courage that I’ve had forever and a day. You don’t know, I know. But can I just show you? Just tonight, as though no other night has been this important to us. You haven’t a...
My intention wasn’t to ruin you, or this. I don’t even remember what it is like to be with you anymore. You’re so distant and gone. I suppose I allowed myself to reciprocate that. I’m so utterly sorry. I couldn’t be any more sorry than I am now. If you’re gone, and if everyone else is gone too, then so shall I. For there is no point in continuing this if...
New rap sucks. Old school is the way to go.
“I’ve never been so much in love; I’ve never hurt so bad at the same...”
– Graham Nash
je te manque...
So suddenly, you have disappeared. And so unfortunately, I find myself wondering if all you promised me and all I believed from you is really the truth after all. I have no idea where you are, or what you are up to. I’m not sure if that is the result of your constant need to keep your life outside of our relationship such a secret. It could possibly be because something has happened to you....
j'ai déja vu...
I didn’t realize that it is annoying of me to tell you that I love you.
I apologize, sincerely.
seasidelullaby:
…And there are nights where I swear I can feel him…through all the miles and walls between us, I can feel him as if he were lying next to me, my head on his chest as always. And then I realize—what’s the difference between there and here? I realize that the atoms of my face are indistinguishable from the atoms of the pillow where I set it, and these energies are indistinguishable...